| Friday, October 14, 2005

Well another day almost over and i'm one day closer to seeing Joe.

I haven't talked to him in a few days now, and all of sudden, it hits me that im leaving soon. I'm leaving this country, my friends and family to start my own family. All i have known will just be memories. It's wierd. I'm gonna miss this place after all i think. I think after being here for so long, has made me real tired of all the people here. They're "special". (i guess i'm included).

I didn't work today, but just started to clean out my room and went through my stuff. Turns out i had a lot more things than i thought i did.
I realized that i cannot bring all my stuff with me to the states, so..i dunno what to do with all the "leftovers".. Hmm.. oh well, i'll figure it out later.

I spent the entire night watching O.C.C.I was so lazy and just sat around and watched it for hours. That Paulie guy, is so hot! (of course no one could ever beat my sexy husband though) He just seems like a real sweetheart! Dunno if i'd want his dad as my inlaws though..

I hope Joe will call me soon. Tomorrow i'm back to work/ I only have 2 weeks left now at that place. Can't wait!

Baby if you read this., I love you and am thinking about you daily. I can't wait for you to come home and to complete you again.

I'll always love you!
Only yours

This guy, is so hot!

)...Missing You So...(

| Tuesday, October 11, 2005

Our first year anniversary as a married couuple is coming up and I can't believe i have to spend it with a computer.
I remember when Joe proposed to me! I won't get into it, but it was very sweet.
(Pic=My engagement ring)

I think i have become obsessed with the news! I'm living such a tradgic life these days. I'm just waiting for Joe to come home! (2 months and 9 days to go)
I can't wait to go to see Jimmy in November. I'm so excited! My brother is so much fun hangin aroung with. He always makes me smile.

I was doing some wedding stuff the other night. I can tell you one thing. Our wedding ceremony will be a fairytale. It's gonna be a dreamwedding and i'm marrying my prince. And i am so lucky because my very best friend, Sophia, will be there. She is so sweet and i love her a lot! I'm so lucky to be her friend.. She really is everything! Everytime i'm with her, she always fills me with energy to do anything. She is so incredible how she is coping with my worries and all regarding Joe, I could not ask for a better person! She is my friend, sister, my everything! I love u girl.

I haven't talked to Joe in a while now. Although we stay in touch through emails but its not the same as hearing my sweet husbands voice. Isn't loving someone the best feeling ever? I'm still (if not more) in love with Joe as i was the first week i met him, and we are now celebrating 3 years together. Oh i miss him so much...

)...Missing You So...(

| Monday, October 03, 2005

Life sux!

I have discovered that i am living an extremly boring and depressing life.
Enouh said about that!

Other news?
I'm leaving this craphole in less than 2 months. My husband is comming home in 3 months.
I also got my green card and quit my two jobs. Now i'm just trying to kill time untill i get on that airplane.
I'm leaving on the 16th of November to go to Minnesota to stay with my brother for a while.
I'm so excited about gettin my apartment.
It's gonna suck to have to leave my parents and have them on the other side of the world. But what i won't do for my dear husband.

Joseph is still stuck in the sandbox. He is really tired of bein there at this point and says he just wants to come home and this whole deployment has gotten old. Well Amen to that!! (I'm so tired of this as well, darling but Lord know i could not be more proud of you)
He should be home no later than january. Oh my god i am so excited..
I will be welcoming him home as his wife.
Oh i love that man.

)...Missing You So...(

| Tuesday, July 26, 2005

I know! It's been some weeks since my last post. Geez, how could i? I'm sorry!
Everything is fine though.
I have been busy with work and my whole green card procedure which takes forever. Argh!!!

I had the best birthday ever!!! I got a fricken new car. Yay!
I also, got the most beautiful ring from my husband. A CZ double banded platinum ring. It's so pretty! I feel so beautiful wearing it.

Well, the wheather herere, surely stinks. It's been raining pretty much all lof july. (pretty bad spot for tourism) Oh well.. I don't see why anyone would want to come to this depressing country anyway.

Yesterday i went shopping with my mom, i got some stuff for mine and joe's apartment. *sweet*
I don't like spending money when it's my own. Haha. wow that's bad, Nah, i mean, when i was little girl, i would get something if i wante dit really bad. (spoiled?) - Oh yeah, i'd say so..
But now when i'm married i can't put on that tiny dress and that smile i used to wear back then to get what i want. Haha. I don't mind buying stuff for us though, because i know it will be ours.

I talked to Joe last night, Oh man, i miss him so much. I think hearing his voice is worse than the fact that i know how far away he is, because it's like he is here, but i can't see or touch him.

Well. I gotta take my dog out for a daily walk...

Precious muffin, huh?

)...Missing You So...(

| Thursday, July 07, 2005

So after a few days i am back to my big suprise.
I have realized time pass by fatser when you don't reflect and think about it.

Anyways, i've been lazy and not feeling like updating lately.
I spent these last few days out by our summer cabin.
being back there made me miss joe even more, because of all the moemories we made there. I didn't know wheather to laugh or cry. I find that sometimes thinking of him and the time we had together here is more hard emotionelly.
So by the way, Xcuse my language.
It's been a while since school and not talking to joe everyday makes me lose my words and grammar more often than it should.
I know what it's like though with people who hardly can make their point. We have a lot of those people here. It's crazy! All these people come here from the middle east, and don't even wanna try to learn the Swedish language, but just be a public charge. I have so many stories about them that would make anyone cry.
Like some people in another county, (not in my neighbourhood) are really pissing me off.
These people are just becomming more and more adjusted to the society their own way. I'll give you an example.

Like we have some people living in the "ghetto" which is a outside of town. These pople living there, have their own freaking buss and buss driver becasue they don't wanna learn how to read a watch. So they use an excuse such like they can't read a timetable for the bus, so they need tehir own buss with a driver so they can run errands and so on.
The most sick part is that our government doesn't even care about this.
They just let these people run all over them without even stop and think for a minute. So it's people like me, who has to provide for them with my tax money. Sounds crazy enough? Well, imagine living here, and see all these people takng advantage of all they can get.
Don't get me wrong though, there are plenty of good hard working people as well, but they are the minority.
I dunno, i think with all the different cultures and races we have here, there's gonna be a civil war within a few years. Really is too bad.. I mean, i love my country to death and if i'd have to defend it, i'd be ready in a heartbeat.
I just think it's so sad how easy it is to come and live here.
I guess all of this is after the terror attack in London today..

It made me so sick to hear about that. Who are all these sick animals perfoming these disgusting attacks? Just some failed abortions i guess.
(Now you can see this is making me really pissed) so maybe i should just think good thoughts.. now..

ssooo.. I'm so xcited to see Jim again on monday. It's been a whole year since i saw him.
I can't believe it's been that long.
I feel kinda bad for him though. Having to travel all the way here with two toddlers. Also i feel bad for all those people on the plane having to hear crying babies for 9 hours. I know what a pain that can be. You usually get to a point where you just want to push some cotton in to that babies little mouth. One time when i was flying to Colorado to see joe, i was on this damn plane for 12 hours and had a crying baby on the other side of the aisle. He has been crying for hours and i was just as worned out as the dad. Haha, i got so frustruated with this poor dad for not taking care of his son so i looked over at them and was like- Ok, you've pissed off the whole plane now, what's next? You want the pilot to go down at the nearest airport so you'll get some attention on the speaker phones as well?
I was so tired after that trip but just like always, it was worth it.
I think one of the funniest thins about flying to the states is when you have to go through the security and customs.
Haha, the questions they ask you are just absurd, and the security rountines are usually a good show that keeps me entertained for a while.
I mean, i don't mind it, i think it's good they are being so careful with whom has to put their shoes on the luggage car wash or drink out of their juice bottle etc.
nah, I Love America!! Those people there are just doing what they are told to do just like any other employee.
Like i was saying to joe, i don't think i'd be going this whole procedure for any other country than the greatest country on earth. Getting my residenc in the states has taken me almost 6 years and i'm still not done. I should be on the last chapter though.. But i know in the end, it will so be worth living there. I'll be a great honor to me to walk the streets like any other american.

So my dad's birthday is coming up, and i have no idea what to get him. I never know what to get people for their birthdays. SO far, i've made him about 40 HUGE ccinnamon rolls, but still don't think that adds it up.. Any suggestions?
Hm.. he is a pilot so getting him a travel book or something like that would just be ironic.

with my birtday just a few days away, i am making all kinda of plans to keep me busy and my mind off from missing Joe. Last year was great. We went to target and did all kinds of crayz stuff. Haha. it was a great birthday acctually. I guess all i want for it this year, is for Joe to come home safely along with all the other troops over there.
I know it's just a matter of time though! We all just have to wait a little bit longer.

Well time for bed. Maybe i'll be back tomorrow, maybe not, Don't wait up for me!

Love you Joe.. Come home soon!!

)...Missing You So...(

| Saturday, July 02, 2005

Sorry it's been a few days since my last post.
Everything is fine with me and joe. We both have been really busy with work though.

My job is still really too hectic for me, but i'm hanging in there, the guys i am wroking with are awesome so that makes it easier and helps the day go by faster.
One guy working in the same building is from Afghanistan and came here 2 years ago. I talked to him and asked him about what he thought of the U.S invade. Of course, he said he didn't see the point of it, but somehow, the work needed to be done but now they should just hand it over to the afghans and go back to america.
I was really puzzled about our conversation. I asked him how he thinks the people on the other side feel about being there when the citizens aren't making an effort to build up their own country, therefore, troops must be there? We talked for a while and i ended up getting mad with him. Hahah.. although, he is a good guy and don't have anything against him, I just don't concider him as a friend. if ya know what i mean.
Although i agree with him in the matter that something had to be done 3 years ago in afghanistan. But i dunno.. I'm speechless.

so i found out these great news that my brother, Jim, and his family are coming for a visit next week. That will be amazing.. I haven't seen them in so long.
It's so wierd, My brother is a dad of two now, i still concider him as my brither who lives at home. I dunno, i guess i haven't really pictured him as a dad these last few years. And now, he's having two!! Me and Joe hasa lot of catching up to do when he gets home.
Nah, as much as i am looking forward to having a baby with Joseph, i couldn't imagine myself as a mom right now.
Bringing a baby into this world comes with so much responsibility that you have to put everything else aside and not focus on anything else, and right now, niether me or my husband are at that point in our life where it's right to do so because of our careers and so on.
I am really looking forward to the day when we are ready though. It'll be a wonderful journey with him by my side.

well i'm off to bed.
G'night everyone.
I love you Joe!

)...Missing You So...(

| Wednesday, June 29, 2005

"A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles that seperate
Disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight
it's only you and me
The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that it gets better as we go
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me
Everything I know,and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me"
I LOVE THIS SONG! Don't ask me why my husband always pops up in my head when i hear it.. Hmm..
Today i feel like.. um.. all DEPRESSED! Yeah! you heard me!!
I just don't feel like doing anything becides crying out my heart and missing Joe!
I wanna let everyone know that i am deeply sorry for that tragic helicopter crash on thuesday in Afghanistan. My heart and prayers go out to all the families and friends. I know when such tragedy happens, no words are enough to cover the pain. But you should all know our soldiers will always be remembered in history and represent the meaning of the word "hero" for eternity.
Thank you America for serving your country! I salute you!
**God Bless you**

)...Missing You So...(